So, I crawl.
I'm sitting here wondering where this is all coming from. Why on today, of all days, when I had planned on sitting in my living room making presents, why am I pouring all of this out?
And it occured to me what today is.
Today is the day, three years ago, I left my entire life behind. Three years ago today I left the man I loved for a lie. I gave up everything on this day, and it's taken me years to put it all back, to sew up all of the wounds. I ruined 2 marriages, shattered everyone's dreams, blew plans for the future on this day.
And I forgot.
I'm sorry.
God.
I'm so sorry.